People are cold. Uncaring. Rude. Obnoxious. Perhaps I expect too much.. perhaps I don't. I try not to be an emotional person... I stay in a state of mediocrity most of the time, but being shaken to the core is unnerving and unbearable. I'll stay on Cloud 9, thank you very much. Those that wish to join me need only invite themselves.
So it's Valentine's Day.. the day of love.. the day to love. As I've already mentioned, I love everyone. I try to be helpful.. to treat people fairly... to think of them when nobody else does. I don't really feel the need to validate myself through another person. I decided years ago that I would more than likely be alone for my entire life. It doesn't scare me. I have no fear of loneliness. I don't aim to love.
Now this isn't saying that if it came to be I would reject it, but it simply isn't the case that everyone needs to love. And not general love, but the love that binds people together for their lives. "You can survive without love" was the quote I heard this morning.. and I believe it. Perhaps, perhaps not. People may fill this void with alternative activities.. some positive, some negative. For now, I'm not thinking about it.
Though, it's hard not to think about VD when you've received 5 cards for it. I didn't know I was supposed to give out cards! Besides, I'd much prefer Valentine's Day in Japan, in where the women get their male coworkers chocolates just because. That's a good deal if I ever heard of one.
The week is looking up. I have several dinner dates spread throughout the week and between that and my upcoming trip to Atlanta, I will be keeping busy for the foreseeable future. And my exams went really well.. better than I had hoped. Perhaps I'm more intelligent than I give myself credit for.
What are you doing/what did you do for Valentine's Day? I'm headed out for a pseudo dinner and obtaining my long lost cat from the in-laws. ;)
Karma. What goes around, comes around. Don't expect without giving. Don't deny without being denied.